Wednesday, November 23, 2011

the second exam day and today

haha,the 1st day of exam is strategy management subject but then i didn't pay much attention on this subject because i have not doing the revision before day and i woke up very late the second day until i really have no much time to do revision,i just take a look for my note.That's it!Now i know why the smart students can get the excellent result since they always say they did not do the revision hardly.The reason is paying more than 100% attention in the class is enough.I just wrote the answer that i remembered what the lecturer taught in the class...Thanks,Mr.John Sammy make me attracting to your classes.

Well,i finish my exam in 30 minutes.It really fast,right?i can't believe with myself with this record.Oh,Gosh,i never have such this confidence before.Staying around 1 hours and more at admin office,i have no idea why i'm staying there,waiting friends?perhaps.After that,i bought some snack and soft drink for that night BBQ.I been invited by Jeak to go to her house for gathering. She is my junior and we all do love her so much because she is cute,everyone treats her like the princess.Back to topic, i went to her house around 6pm,because i were taking afternoon nap.That day,i was totally forgot about my exam.Absolutely!i played, i chatted,even stayed over night.One of my weaknesses is i do not know how to reject people.I admit that.

haha,that night,we all played with some crazy action and thinking.i found that we have an awesome imagination.Absolutely!And,we played the dancing street with PS2.Basically such this game only can be found in arcade but jeak got it.Boys and girls played crazy that night,and me,do really forget my exam,genius.After that,i went to jeak's room,and....her room is just like what the movie shown especially in the beginning,the scene show a person sleeping in the room and the room looking was........like that.you imagine it because i not gonna to describe it.

and that was my day until the second day afternoon,i back home.i thought i will study my moral but it is opposite.But i didn't.Oh my gosh i can't believe i slept again!!until 5pm,i woke up and study my moral.Guess what happen?i did my best to do my revision already.Seriously.within 1 hours more,i study it as i can.well,i only can say that,that night exam,i only have 50%confidence of it.Maybe i nervous,i forget some information and lost some marks.The objective part i really used M16 tembak for some question.I can't blame anyone because it's all my fault,i didn't study hard,focusing myself and concentrate it.My sixth sense tell me that i can pass my exam but then my grade point 4 is definitely lose.Never mind,accepted,as long as i not going to fail it.

haha,i really tired that night until in the exam i can't focused it,blank on my mind.After home,i rest for a while. And today,i repeated my problem again,never study until a few hours before the exam.Oh no,i not going to do this again,I can't lost my grade point 4 again,my scholarship!!!please,Esther,i beg you,study now!

Monday, November 21, 2011

the day before exam

well,as you know tomorrow is my final exam
nope,it should be today already cause it is 1.13Am now~
and the below is my schedule of doing revision

20-11-2011
10.12Pm-got mood to get my note from my bag
10.15pm-throw it on the bed and continue with my laptop
11.00pm-discuss with friend about jailbreak because i totally have no idea what is that~
11.46pm-Magdalene commented on my status and we are starting to chat in fb.

21-11-2011
12.00am-still chatting with Magdalene but finally 'm doing some things for revision
12.30-don't know what am i writing about in my note,just simply wrote something i can understand
1.00am-finally i done my revision with just copying the point to my note.
1.05am-Magdalene stopped to comment on my status.i guess she is sleeping,good night,Mag.
1.08am-read the note that i wrote just now,i feel so proud with myself,knowing nothing.
1.10am-Argh,stop to do my revision.SLEEP,to be continued in the morning.
1.13am-suddenly wanted to update my blog,so came up updated until now
1.24am-perhaps i should stop my day with this full-stop?GOOD NIGHT.<---full-stop here

i feel so proud with myself,genius here because in this few hours,i know nothing and can't concentrate on it......am i going to show my genius talent in the exam or bringing the dice,throw it for the answer or going to take M16 from Army and tembak the answer?what a pity bullet.LOL

Saturday, November 19, 2011

那些年,我们吃喝玩乐的日子

不知道为什么,今天我很爱看以前所拍的照片,很难怀疑我是否老了,长大了?还是说它们是我的美好回忆?看看以前的我们,脸上一看就知道一副很单纯,天真,爱玩,傻傻的样子,现在看起来有几分成熟的感觉(因为有pimple了),眼神藏着不能透露的心机和一说话可以杀死人的嘴巴。如果说这是大人的世界,我宁可永远像以前一样,做个单纯的傻瓜,被人骗,也不愿去伤人,因为至少我的心不会有罪恶感。

看了看旧照片,有种被安慰的感觉,至少以前曾经拥有真心的时光,我坦白说,我以前不管什么人,什么事情都不用提防,可以很放心,很信任身边的所有一切,可以说以前不知道什么叫压力,什么叫烦恼,就好像童话故事里一样,无忧无虑地生活。发生了什么事,总会有人帮我扛,帮我解决,我就像被人呵护一样,在我周围有一层很强的保护盖。差不多过着要风得风,要雨得雨的日子(不过还没到那个地步)。就连和朋友吵架,都是那种小孩子吵架一样,过几分钟,好像没发生过一样,继续疯狂地去玩。若换成现在,和身边的人吵架,可能还要被缠上一堆麻烦。

其实我想要谢谢我中学的所有同学,尤其同班同学,一直这么地保护我,即使被别班欺负了,你们二话不说,帮我出头。真的,学校都说我们是坏学生,那是因为在他们眼里,有做功课,考试拿好的成绩,又有杰出的课外活动等等的学生,都是好学生,而我们没有这些条件就这样被当成坏学生。其实我们曾经真的有努力过,只是学校不知道罢了。我这样安慰我自己。哈哈,我真的好喜欢我那一班,我们“坏”得可爱,“坏”得单纯,所谓“学生不坏,学校不爱”嘛。。当年的副校长都还蛮疼我们这班的。我的中文老师在我们毕业后,跟我说,我们这班没有别的老师所说的那么坏,虽然有时真的被我们气坏,可是我们也有她喜欢来教课的优点,我们很有创意。我们写的诗,虽然没有好班的优雅,高级,不过还挺有意思的。而我始终觉得我们并不是坏学生,只不过是好玩,有小聪明的学生。

那些年,我们吃喝玩乐的日子真的很怀念。因为现在在这么复杂的生活圈里,不能像以前一样天真,要张开眼睛认识人心;朋友们一个个去读书了,再也没有保护层在我周围了,我必须学会保护自己。啊,好多想念啊。。我想念中学吵吵闹闹的日子,我想念和晶磊他们玩玩的日子,我想念在少团和文慧他们服事的日子,我想念在Ns和柠檬家族相处的日子。都很想念这些日子,当然还有他们。。

感觉我现在在孤军作战,一个人面对所有,偶尔会翻开照片看一看,想一想,笑一笑,我的力量又会被充满了,继续面对这个死不乱的世界。。当然,偶尔会收到他们的关心的mail,问候的message,让我被锁起的心,又再一次热了起来=)

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Kau Melodi yang indah

My last CF in the school today

I appreciate it very much

i did enjoy my time in CF

this was my ideal fellowship in my heart

why WAS?

after today,i won't join it anymore

this is my last semester in my school

and next year gonna study in University


OK,out of topic

come back now...

i would like to say thank you to all of you

especially the leader and the committee

although we are not perfect

In God's sight,we are the perfect one

because we have the heart of worship!

In Jesus Christ,we are the same

every time playing the game

the student,the staff,CEO,the lecturers even the pastors

will join us together

we worship,we played,we shared

all in this together..

i feel so touched because God let me see this that

everyone is the same in His eyes

try to put down all the burden and feel the world

God's creation


And

God understand me

feel my sadness and my disappointment

He did a pretty good planning to me

Some of my friends

some lost in contact around 3 years

some lost in contact 2 years

and i found their news recently

and some of them send me a message

or contact me

i feel so warm

what is this called?

the warmth of friendship,right?

thank you for everything in this

suddenly my tears dropped off


Of course,my convocation is coming soon

and here i would like to say some thank you

thank you to my course mate

for helping me in assignment,presentation even the final exam

help me do the revision

i appreciate very very much

and the lecturers and seniors

specially thanks to Mdm.JC for teaching us a lot syllabus

thank you to Mr.Awang for always help us and interacted with us as the friend's side

thank you to Miss Wong Ping Ping for treat us as her friends more than her students

thank you to Mr.John Sammy for making the class became more exciting and easy to understand

thank you to my seniors-Mei Ching and Pei Pei for always protecting us when we get the unfair treats

and,i personally thanks to my best course mate and friend- Nikki and Yin Ming

thank you for accompanied when i'm sad when i'm cried

thank you for always make me laughed in the class and played the game

i miss the time we made cupcakes

i miss the time we played Left For Dead in CC

i miss it so much...

thank you you alls

without you guys

i can't imagine how my life's goes on

it such a wonderful memory in this 2 years

after the convocation,we gonna separate

i don't know what's you plan in future

but i gonna continue my studies on June next year in University Heriot Watt

anyway,regards my blessing and wishes

all the best,continue to strive your dream and fight for your future

lastly,play this song with my sincerely heart

why i choose this song?

listen to the lyric,it describe all my words in my heart

this is one of the songs in my NS video

the song i had sing in 1 performance

the song i ever recorded in studio with MV

It is meaningful song to me

and now,i would like to share it with my course mate

all the best


Regards,

Esther Lim

Your course mate forever