Thursday, September 13, 2012

Do Not Fear

     11th September 2012, it was a miracle happen to a girl who has phobia in driving. Before a day to sit the exam, she wrote a status on Facebook:

"Dear all,FYI,this coming Tuesday is my driving exam. I don't know whether it's a good or bad thing,if you know my past,you definitely know how much the stress I'm facing in this 2 if you treat me as your friend in your life,please pray for me,pray I won't be so nervous and calm down on that day,pray everything is going smoothly on that day. If my driving exam is fail,please don't comfort me because your sympathy may hurt my heart accidentally. Lastly,wish me luck:)"

Yeah,it's me.Because there are 2 events happen to me in the past that caused me have lost the faith in driving,scare to drive even doesn't wish to learn to drive the car in my whole life until the end of my life.

I took almost in 2 years for the whole course from attending the law class until the driving test that day.Quite a long time,isn't?Yes!Indeed it was!! How I wish I can avoid to learn to drive the car when my instructor taught me in driving.I always made the excuses to absent my driving lesson when I was learning it. See,I keep delayed and delayed,so it won't be weird if someone else can take almost in 2 years to learn to drive the car.

 Until last Sunday,when I sat into the car,my instructor informed that this coming Tuesday is my driving test day.I was like:

Get shocked.Why is me?why I need to take the test????????

My feeling was like a ship lost the direction at the middle of the sea,my mind was blank.The only thing I can do it "Pray".

My S-parking,3 point-turn always steped on the white line, my "naik bukit",I don't know how to stop my car by using the brake.And I was thinking, this time I sure get fail, you know what's the meaning,hehe).

I was moody,so I wrote a post on Facebook but I never thought that I could get some response in this. Some of the friends,we are kinda long time not keep in touch,suddenly came and comforted me by the words"add oil","gambateh","you can do it","don't be afraid". Honestly,it warmed my heart deeply.Suddenly,I have a little faith(how bad am I,so many people comforted me and I just give a little bit faith to myself).

By the way,thanks friends.Your prayer is actually helped me a lot.At least,God knows and I can felt it.

I slept early before the day,because I scare I will get some tired if I didn't rest well. But who knows,I suddenly woke up in 1am.What the.........I'm in  insomnia.Since I can't sleep,I listened some Christian Songs.

And the songs from Li Shang,she posted me a song to give me some moral support,and I been attracted by this song,my fear disappeared all in a that night:

Feel free to click the link,yeah,is hillsong's song-"Do Not Fear",the lyric is from the words of Bible(Isaiah chapter 43)

I kept playing and playing this song.Until I get back to sleep.

Early in the morning,I prepared myself to go to the center for the test. What a coincidence, I met Edward(my course mate),he took the exam too.Lol,gambateh to we both.So we discussed and talked for the whole morning until he took the test.Looks like he's more stable than me. He passed all for the inside session.Congratulation to him.
hen I was alone,the phobia and the fear started appeared again. Hard breath,fast heart-beat and so on,that's the symptom of phobia.I cried,no one was beside me when I need supports,when I need helps.

I been waiting for a few hours,from 9am plus until 2pm plus,do you think that I can not to think so much possibility in this few hours?Suddenly,the song"Do Not Fear"popped out in my mind,I immediate played this song,repeated and repeated again.And I kept praying,how I hope God will listen my prayer.what a silly girl,of course I know God will listen my prayer,is I have no confidence to myself.

When I sat there,I just realized the exam car is using kancil,lol,FYI,I never drive kancil before.It was my 1st time.More fear came out.Aduiiii.The examiner called my name.Ok,sat in the car.Wah,that's totally different with Viva,die lor die lor.

1st time,I "naik bukit",I failed.but in this part,we have 2 chances,so I still had another chance.As I said,I never drive kancil,so I never knew that the power is not sames as Viva. I started nervous.I closed my eyes(still had time to think,LOL),and took a deep breath,I think the messages from everyone who concern on me,I think what God will speak to me,I think "Do Not Fear"song,I think.........You know,all my fears was decreasing  a lot.After adjusting and gave myself an encourage,again,I "naik bukit",but this time,I DID IT!! And I wondered how I did it.(Until now,I still don't know how I through it,LOL)I smiled in the car with some tears,and said:Thanks God,You always beside me no matter what.

S-parking and 3 point-turn.S-parking was in my expectation,and 3 point-turn,the examiner gave me some tips how to through it and I just can passed it.I kinda lucky because I met the examiner that giving the tip how to drive through in 3 point-turn.

My instructor was the most happy one because I passed all the parts for inside session.Probably he doesn't want to see my face again in his lessons,I guess,LOL.And What's the next?awaiting the outside session test, Outside session is using Viva as the exam car. But we waited quite a long time until the inside session already finished yet still had a lot people awaited the outside session exam.

No choice lor,the 2 examiners whom examined inside session used that 2 kancil to use as the outside session exam car.Lol,I thought after inside session,I don't need to drive kancil anymore in my life,I was wrong.At the same time to await my turns,I made some friends at there(but I don't know their name),we were sharing our experience in learning to drive.

I also thank God for the outside session,There was the miracle,I had no fear when I drove, seriously,NO MORE FEARS inside my heart,I was thinking:wah,the power of praying is strong.So guys,DO NOT LOOK DOWN THE POWER OF PRAYING. Every single prayer God is listening.

The examiner was actually asked me to drive to road B.But road B so many check-point need to slow down,so I requested that I want drive to road C.He hesitated for a while and looked at me(maybe he saw I wore face-mask and kept sneezing),so he approved my permission. Wow such a great examiner I ever met.

In normal time I drove to Road C,there was many cars passed by and get some small traffic jam at road-about.But this time,no cars on the road.God is so good to me.  I drove as I wish on the road like a boss and arrived to the finish point safely.Honestly,I never drove very well in previous time when I was learning.NEVER!Phew,Thank you God. The examiners gave me 19 points.19 POINTS!!!Wow,that's the best result I get in my life.

So I immediate post on Facebook:

"Today was my driving exam day.while I was awaiting my turn,the fear from my heart 

made myself get in a very down situation until I cried,but when I get the calling,the MSG even fb comments from all of you,it warm my heart. When I took the inside session exam, my fear was decreasing a lot and the examiners gave me the supports and helps,so I'm quite lucky to pass the session 1 exam. And the outside session,There was a miracle,I had no fear inside my heart,this was the most stable and well performance since I'm learning to drive. I believe God always by my side,so everything was going' smoothly.Guys,don't you know?your prayer,your moral support,your blessing have help me to make a wonderful testimony to God.indeed,it time,I will update my blog about how's your prayer works on a person who have phobia on driving, a detail testimony. Thank you everyone,and finally I officially to say that: I pass my driving exam!thank you all,love you all:)"

Guys,I pass it. 

                         I PASS IT!!!!!!

A person who has phobia finally pass her driving test. Can you imagine?I never though this will happen to me in some day.Never!I thank you all of you who concern me,I thank you God for always look after me,I thank you everyone who helped me always.

Really really appreciate so so much.Your prayer,your supports really helped me a lot.I LOVE YOU ALL.MUACKSS.
God,thank you very much,Although I haven't conquer my phobia completely,I sure You will guide me,help me to go through,aren't?

And,guys,do you?

(Until now I still can't believe I pass my driving test, unbelievable,I have to say that my P license is containing God's grace,warmth of friendship and my effort.)


--Believe,makes the miracle--